My Amygdala

I wish we had talked about it
There's a lot of things I'll never say to you
I wish you had seen me grow into who I am today
I think I lost myself trying to help you find yourself

I feel guilty whenever I stop moving
I know I'm free, but it's so lonely
I'm afraid that I've peaked and this is all I will ever be
Who was I supposed to be before I met you

I have yet to grieve
I still don't know what fulfills me
This too shall pass
What if my idea of me is better than my actual self

What if I've already used up all I was given
I don't know if I feel regret or shame
I love you
I feel like I'm always running out of time

I'm still healing from things that were never my fault
I'm finally used to your absence
When the last thing left is the memory, remembering hurts
I wish you weren't a part of the cycle of things I thought about in a day

I wish I could step outside my head for a minute
Who made the rules
It is only a matter of time before everyone realizes
I am a bad person

I think I am good, but I am not sure
What if I am fooling everyone, including myself
I am the only one that does not know
I shouldn't have said that

Everybody knows
I am in the wrong room
I am always in the wrong room
I can't stop leaving myself alone

What if I am wrong
What if I am wrong
I don't know how I feel
What am I supposed to be feeling

I have no idea what I look like
What if I am hated for things I don't know about
I am not doing enough
I am doing enough

You are enough
How can I change when you are still holding on to this past version of me
I think I miss you
I think I miss who I used to be around you

It happened
There's nothing you can do
There's nothing you can do
I owe myself an apology

Move forward
Don't look back
Remember when you thought it would never end, but then it did
I'm no longer afraid of the past

Nothing is permanent
Not the good things
Not the bad things
It scares me, but it is a relief to know that

Everything comes
Everything passes
Everything passes
Everything passes

Everything passes