Cried Myself a River

Cry yourself a river and get over it
I didn't have a way to cross
I cried myself that river and drowned
No one cared to notice
I spend my days hating myself
Waiting for a way out
I'm watching everyone drift away
And I couldn't care to make them stay

I'm aware, but not here
I'm surviving, never living
Hold my breath, count to ten
Wait for pressure to build inside my head
I have no healthy way to cope

People are so focused on the physical
They don't know when others are suffering
Because I wasn't sick and I wasn't dying
No one knew I wasn't alright
They only saw a healthy girl
Even though my heart was beating
And even though I could breathe I wasn't living
They're all gonna wanna say sorry
But it's too late for me now
I went too long without help

I'm aware, but not here
I'm surviving, never living
Hold my breath, count to ten
Wait for pressure to build inside my head
I have no healthy way to cope

Be ashamed of yourself look at where you are
You've got it easier than anyone else
There's others who have it worse than you
You're just a child stop seeking attention
You're too young to think those thoughts
Stop being ungrateful for what you've got
They invalidate my feelings because I'm young
They say it's just a phase
But I've been here for years
Maybe when I'm older they'll finally listen
Maybe they won't question it

So I grew up
Excited that I'd be old enough
For people to acknowledge my feelings
But now they say I'm being childish



Credits
Writer(s): Mercedes Heslop
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