Sleep Walking

Like the blindest sheep purposely naive
Live our days like nights while we walk in our sleep

I had a doctor appointed today for minor pain
I remember the time it was five to eight
I went to the front desk and I signed my name
The lady said to have a seat probably be a tiny wait
She offered me a water then politely asked if I had ate
I made a dumb joke said no can I try the steak
She laughed and said I could come back now right this way
A nurse took me to my room and checked my height and weight
The next few minutes would determine how my life would change
That's when the doctor came in holding my x-rays
She said there's no easy way to say what I'mma say
It won't make sense to you no matter how I explain
But there's a tumor
And it's inside your brain
And there's cancer in your stomach growing by the day
And at this point it's like living with a live grenade
And there's a 90% chance you could die today
I'm sorry Kenneth

Like the blindest sheep purposely naive
Live our days like nights that won't end if we never go to sleep
In our comfy beds we lay down our heads
Every day like night while we walk in our sleep

I struggle to catch my breath
If this is it then I gave it my best I guess
All of my decisions I'm starting to second guess
Like maybe this is karma
I shoulda expected this
I picture the pearly gates only see where the exit is
Cause there's some big ass buff angel bouncer throwing me out
Saying I'm not allowed on the premises
I turn to saint peter like just check the list
I snap back now I'm at the receptionist
She slides me the bill and does it so effortless
That's a lot of zeros there's no way
And that's just the copay
This says my insurance doesn't cover a cent of this
I clench my fist throw the pen I'm pissed
Feels like a bad movie what kind of end is this
I start to reminisce about my friends and kids
Suddenly thinking about all my text messages
That I regret I've missed
The man I've become
The friend that I've been
My wife and my son
And all the days I disguised as fun
was just novocaine to my brain to stay numb
While I press snooze on the only clock I got
phone calls get blocked while I watch tiktok
In the trance of a random thought
Maybe I'll start a dance hashtag sleepwalk
And then I'll do it again
But then I think to myself
I'll never do it again
I'll just put my phone on the shelf
but then I do it again
But then I do it again and again and again

Like the blindest sheep purposely naive
Live our days like nights that won't end if we never go to sleep
In our comfy beds we lay down our heads
Every day like night while we walk in our sleep