Existential Crisis

Sometimes I go about my day and never see a second
And then I blink and suddenly, I pop into existence
How is it my hands can move
Without my conscious thought?
Is this my only body or is this the one I've got?

I fall into a loop in which I wonder
Am I even awake right now? If-
I can tell the time, do I have the right to ponder
What would happen if I tried to fly?

When I think onto my memories
From four to six to nine
It's like watching back a movie of somebody else's time
Why don't I remember all the things they say I've done?
Was that even me or am I a different someone?

-Fall into a loop in which I wonder
Am I even alive right now? If-
I can read these lines, do I have the right to ponder
What would happen if I tried to kill my-

All I know for certain's gone flying out the window
Cause I'm the only consciousness I can ever really guarantee exists
Will the world end when I die?
Does it make me narcissistic
That in my house, I beg for home?
How could I know?

If I lost my mind, would I ever really know?
Am I locked behind the glass or am I still in control?
Where do I exist? What am I without my thoughts?
If I don't know who I am, can I say who I am not?

I fall into a loop in which I wonder
Do I even know myself? If-
I can speak my mind, do I have the right to ponder
What would happen if I

All I know for certain's gone flying out the window
Cause I'm the only consciousness I can ever really guarantee exists
Will the world end when I die?
Does it make me narcissistic
That in my house, I beg for home?
I'll never know