Game of Chess

Well she's my queen, if life is like chess
My queen might clear the board by herself though
A mid-life slap in the face
What do you want?
What if we could go back to the start?
To sweet 16 she loved to wear pink
I heard she fell in love for a week or a month
I know she had a good heart woulda' melted me away
Lunch time breaks and kicking at soccer balls
But we'd meet later
And that sweet oscillator would come around

Well I was girlish too but I liked the color blue
Had some lonely days I was a nerd and an outcast
Capture the flag and kill the bad guys
Blue vs red keep my fingers adept
With some friends like me and we liked to make movies
Or drink coca cola and hope for a flush
Or a full house and go all in
I'm all grins
No gin no smokes no bottle of rum

Until summer grade 12, 4 pack of cold shots
And smoke cigarillos and rage at the sun, yup
The reefer would come, maybe it undid me
But raised me up to the man I've become
Young love like smoke in my lungs
So high and so dumb
Open to suggestion
That 02-14 I'll never forget
When in bed she said she wants forever or nothin' from me
But that young man could only live for the moment
You see a long view was just a week or a month
So outta touch, every day seeking out an escape
Waking up half baked was the only price to pay

And now years later he can see right through
Sees so many things that he wished he knew
Sees the ways even now that he's doing it wrong
Blue light ignite the night and skip the red at dawn
Sanctify the passage of man
A Queen in white and a ring on her hand
Saying now that he isn't afraid of death
He's just sad as fuck like the day she left
He was looking for more when the answer was less
Another question in this game of chess