June 23

I did love you, but not how you thought I did
I was only trying to romanticize being on the side

It was so quick, like two seconds
A quick glimpse out my window when I'm driving
30 plus minutes to get to you, and I cried on every way home

Only "Grace" to console me
Thinking about it all
A past life, a twin flame?
Filling up my car
All or nothing, didn't tell you anything

I was so loud, I only remember that
As you were bringing me close to the edge of life
And making me comfortable with death

Oh how I loved the salt of you
And I smelled it around for a good week after you left

I try not to mark the days by you and I
To not remember the numbers
And ring in reluctant anniversaries

Your light blue eyes tumbled into black smoke
You said I was too dark after I made that joke
I watched you walk away and wished you'd turned around
But you didn't

End of an era
End of an era
End of an –

You may blame me for feeling true
But nothing's there, it's just –

Now I can go to sleep peacefully at night
I move my hips however I like

And maybe, maybe
Someday, someday
I'll be back
But I know I don't have to prove that to you

I'll let you be you
And let me be me
It's best
June 23
Driving across that dam
Near every day

I saw that movie without you
It would've gone over your head anyway