MELATONIN BOY

I said I wouldn't, but I went and did it anyway
Tried to keep it together but fell apart at the end of the day
Been masquerading my feelings
I'm really bad at pretending like I'm ok
So I'll throw on another fake smile until I'm fresh outta paint

I miss my mother, she doesn't know because I never call
Spending all of my time just staring at the wall

And I know I cancel every one of our plans
I never know what I should do with my hands

But all I ever really wanted to be was a better man

Been starting to wonder why all of the chips in my teeth have appeared
Is it from biting my nails
Or from biting the hands that have fed me for all of these years
But I'm only human, and I'm doing the best I can
But when your head's in the clouds
It's hard to come back down to land

Melatonin boy boy boy
Can you fill the void void void
In your heart and in your head
In your stomach and in your bed
Kill the noise noise noise
Cause I've been losing my sleep

I stretch my hands above my head
Look out the window from my bed
I can't escape, last time I tried I almost wound up dead
Cause it's my prison
Wool and linen wrap like snakes around my neck
That keep on pulling me pulling me back
Pulling me back, pulling me back
Back again

Melatonin boy boy boy
(Melatonin boy)
Can you fill the void void void
(Can you fill the void)
In your heart and in your head
In your stomach and in your bed
Kill the noise noise noise
Cause I've been losing my sleep

And my joy oy oy
Cried about it but there ain't no point, point
(There ain't no point)
Don't feel sorry for me
Cause I'm always gonna be a melatonin boy
Boy boy

I'm not sure where I'm supposed to be
But I know it's somewhere better than here
So tired of waking up and feeling sorry
I'm ready for the fog to clear