Infinite rest

I thought it was you standing in this crowded room
But I'm crying, I'm dying inside as if it was you
I can't take off my eyes from them as if it's your face
But I'm trying, praying the sky as if you were blessed

At nineteen
I'm dying
Didn't you see the signs I gave you?
Didn't you see my mind turning blue?
How does it feel
To break me?
Never thought I'd feel this way about you
Never thought I'd kill my days cause of you

It's so pathetic to see how roses would bloom
If you'd let me the key and try not to consume
The whole magic that emanates from my bedroom
It's a Strategic and tragic place you want to destroyed

At nineteen
I'm dying
Didn't you see the signs I gave you?
Didn't you see my mind turning blue?
How does it feel
To break me?
Never thought I'd feel this way about you
Never thought I'd kill my days cause of you

But I won't fall
No I won't drown
I'll build a throne with all the black stones
That you have left
To me as a gift
Should I ever try

Infinite rest?
To raise your awareness
That my laptop's full of teen's water drops
Isn't this a test?
Oh Should I test?
To make it last less time

Someday I'll sing this
To a public
Cause you didn't see the signs I gave you
You didn't see the pain I was going through

At nineteen
I'm dying
Didn't you see the signs I gave you?
Didn't you see my mind turning blue?
How does it feel
To break me?
Never thought I'd feel this way about you
Never thought I'd kill my days cause of you