Jolmath the Mad, My Sanity-Challenged Shadow

I run from him never-ending miles
Hiding behind infinite obstacles
Still, I cannot escape his maddening wiles
He's sewn to my soles, I'm running in circles

Try to carve him out, piece by piece, before
I see this brings him back twenty times more
I tremble, I shake, as he whispers of death, of blood
Why can't I escape the Dark, get clear of its mud?
Why must my mind stop the scary, fiery flood?

I find it's Eidoslya Drepeis who set the monster free
That by her magic, Jolmath's forever bound to me!
My skull burns to stop it all
Searing pain begins the Fall
Friends refusing to answer my call
Expecting me to save myself in this squall!

That Jolmath would cause dissonance
Shows clearly his wicked, vile contrivance
I have been a fool who rarely really knows
How the other side of the story goes

Often we speak of childhood woes
Yet from these, a lifetime grows
Harboring an Other causes great stress
Playing victim to a psycho demon's jest

Crazy is as crazy does
Ain't that the way the saying goes?
Her subjugation and oppression
Has led to Jolmath's deadly obsession

"Jolmath, listen, enough's enough
You claim to know me, say you call my bluff
Autism's not a weakness, nor is it a crown
But it's my Truth, from which my strength is found!"

"Oh, Casimir, you think that makes you sound so profound!
Suffering is your muse, eh? It's merely an echo, just a sound
I twist your words and deeds, I make do your crazy dance
In this battle of wills, do you think you even stand a chance?"

"Jolmath, mark my words well, your tricks will backfire
The masses will see it was you all along stoking the fire
I am a musician, an artist, I give my people what they want
You think your taunts will stop them removing my haunt?"

Silence, finally after so much struggling for control
It's my life, no-one else's business how I make whole
People like to think it reveals the Dark of my Soul
Just go to show we are hot, and the world is cold

Crazy is as crazy does
Ain't that the way the saying goes?
Her subjugation and oppression
Has led to Jolmath's deadly obsession

You blind me, tearing me with a thousand twists
I'm answering a Dark call I can't ever resist!
Ask for help, but they turn away from me
Plead with them not to let Jolmath get me!

I think they secretly enjoy seeing me on my knees
Every time it fills the fiend with such ungodly glee
They can't ever seem to just give me some empathy
Maybe they don't know it's different than sympathy

Crazy is as crazy does
Ain't that the way the saying goes?
Her subjugation and oppression
Has led to Jolmath's deadly session

I wish someone could help me heal
Before my Soul too, the monster steals