Kokoro

I got all dolled up just for this adventure
With wings of wax and war paint across my nose
To look my best when you're taking my picture
I never thought I'd have to stoop so low

I'm gonna bury you under the moon
I know I'm flying too close to the sun
But that's the thing that separates me from you
I do the things that still have to be done

It smells of smoke
It burns! It burns like flame!
It makes me choke
It hurts! It hurts like hell!
The fireworks are lighting up my face
Don't tell heaven just how far I fell

I tried and failed to kill my own ego
All I know is that I'll never be a hero
Sorry that I hurt everything I touch
I hate that!
I hate that I hate so much
Pretty people don't act so violent
Pretty, pretty people sit there in silence
I want to be loved like you
Should I keep my mouth shut tight too?
What does it take to be respected?
What will it take for me to be accepted?
I'm full of fury and i know it
Pretty boys don't feel these emotions

I don't deserve to be seen
I am not a human being
When I rot, I'll rot alone
Harmonize with marigolds

Would the flowers that I grow
From my flesh and blood and bone
Be loved more than I ever will?
Or would I be a villain still?
Tulips don't cause any harm
And daisies won't leave you with scars
If that's true, I'll die in dirt
And become one with mother earth

Orchids, lilies, dahlias, hydrangeas
Chrysanthemums, poppies and camellias
Sunflowers and lilacs, roses too
All peppered with the morning dew