Don't Tell Me I'm a Joke

I had a dream last night I drove myself to work
Spun out while I tried to make the curve
I was scared, but not 'cause I'm worth shit
'Cause if I lived, I'd have to pay for it

When I woke, I was five pounds heavier
You can see it, god, I'm never eating again
It doesn't matter, oh it always fucking matters
In pictures with people who won't even call me friend

Don't tell me I'm a joke, I know already
It's never that hard to see
When my problems overwhelm me
Forget I'm even here, I'm good and ready
To live this life as a ghost
'Cause that's how we're remembered most

I had a dream last night we had another fight
Almost like it happens every time
I can't pay close attention
To things that need intervention

You say I'm selfish and I don't blame you
You say I'm wasted and I'd say the same too
I'm struggling 'cause it's hard to be
The person I'm convinced everyone needs

Don't tell me I'm a joke, I know already
It's never that hard to see
When my problems overwhelm me
Forget I'm even here, I'm good and ready
To live this life as a ghost
'Cause that's how we're remembered most

I know I'm not what you needed
I know I'm not what you're seeing
It's feeling like it's kind of hopeless
To fix what I have become

Don't tell me I'm a joke, I know already
It's never that hard to see
When my problems overwhelm me
Forget I'm even here, I'm good and ready
To live this life as a ghost
'Cause that's how we're remembered most