Insomniac

(Oh shit)
Surviving in middle of no condition
And sit on bed thinking about my ambition
I thought I didn't need of any addition
But I'm not living inside of a fiction
My entire life was only another confliction
I just need to change 'em of position
I thought I could have some mission
But God still doesn't give me this permission

I accept all this but I broke my mirror
There's no one to trust or to live for
All I want it's to open this door
And someone to get me off the floor
I still remember about that cartoon
Cause it helped me to don't be fool
That's something I think I wouldn't do
Without your hands holding me too soon

Looks like there's an eternal light here
Filling me with too much fear
I thought I'd be okay without my dear
But sometimes still fall some tear
I see I didn't need to be so sad
But I know I chose that
Cause I felt so comfortable
But it's not like I was killing the bad

I delete again this fucking feeling
While I'd seen a distorted ceiling
My mind is getting so revealing
My eyes takes me to heavenly
The universe has become nothing
Cause I can see the sky fading
Like my eyes was a black hole
With stars always collapsing

I swear
That it's not my brain
But my pain
It's paper and pen
Cus I still miss them
I don't get to sleep
That's feeling isn't cheap
Treat me like a bitch
But I never would try
To creep for something that doesn't hold
Cause I don't want to keep
Someone that stole
My gold and now doesn't give a shit
For
The best moments we could be

Please
Just one hour don't thinking
It's 3am
(3am)
And I'm blending
Cus I'm too stupid
(Too Stupid)
To blame
Or erase this fucking scars
(To blame)
But it's too hard
But I try every night
(Every night)
Don't run out
Of oxygen
(Of oxygen)
And freeze in
My own pride
(In my own pride)
But start to fly
In my own thoughts
(To fly)
Without two eyes
So doped