Never Know

Sometimes when I'm lying here giving these tired eyes a rest
I find myself drifting off somewhere to a place that's just like this
Except you are there, sitting in a chair
Watching cartoons on TV
And in this scene I ain't ever dreamed if you're a boy or you're a girl
The only thing that I can tell for sure is that you are my whole world
But then I wake up, and my body's stuck
And it seemed so real to me

We never had the chance to meet, I couldn't look you in the eye
And tell you all the useful things that I'd picked up in my life
And days look so much different now than they did that long ago
But I guess that's just the way it sometimes goes
And that's just another thing you'll never know

Years went past and your mom and me we stopped seeing eye to eye
And when she left you know it took a breath for me to see to the other side
I guess we lost our way, it couldn't be the same
After all that we went through
And blame ain't got no part in this, it just wasn't meant to be
At times I can't help wondering where we all would be
If you were born and we brought you home
To be a family

Would you lay right down beside me on the couch the way I did
To watch a movie with my old man the way I did when I was a kid
Would you be so shy that your head hung low wherever you would go
Or would you try to be the star of every show
That's just another thing we'll never know

I never got to say hello, but then I never said goodbye
I just kept going on with life, I didn't take the time to cry
I thought being strong meant not letting on
That it broke my heart in two
Truth be told it took till now for me to find the words to say
To let you know that you left a hole on the day you went away
So I'll say it here, and I'll shed my tears
In memory of you

I wrote this song to say that you still come up in my mind
Even though I tried to keep my stride and to leave that day behind
I'm the dad you'll never have but I won't ever let you go
And I hope somehow you know I love you so
But that's just another thing I'll never know