Penned Up

You stripped all my color now I bleed gray
As if it's all my fault your subconscious is your adversary
Cave in the drywall replace and replay
The moment in my head you said it all would be okay

Pray that this will go away
And when it gets too late
Fixate on my mistakes until I learn my place

Kinda fun now isn't it
Feels like a punishment
When you wrap your arms around me feel your embrace before the knife enters slowly
I feel so apprehended
This fence is far from mended
Hold and listen up closely, yeah this Mood is far from doing it for me

And like my father says
There is no second best
And like my mother's eyes
I try so hard to be kind

Pray that this will go away
And when it gets too late
Fixate on my mistakes until I learn my place
Then I can change
Cash me in watch you spend
all of your time breaking promises you'll never mend
I want a source from the inside
Being a fly on the wall in my own life

I've been contemplating
backed me into a corner
No longer part of my circle
I knew that someone would get hurt

Cast me aside like a stranger
Feel my heart beating with anger
Outta my chest then on to the floor
I knew that someone would get hurt