Silence In The Room

Don't look at my death as something you can exploit from
Ya happiness is the one thing that I get joy from
Called you baby so much that I think that we owe one
I think that we owe one
All these years of loving you and being so dumb
Silence in the room is what I'm getting noise from
Until ya voice sung
That The night is so young
All this misplaced aggression towards me ain't really for me
Can't let these bad chapters define our story
But it's part our the story

Make sense why ya Broken heart screams pour me
But god be the glory
But god but the glory
But god be the glory
Look
Still hypnotized from the eyes that I look and stare into
Still paralyzed from the dive I took
Falling for her without a parachute
With a reputation full of hits
So when our reputation took a hit
I was Barely bruised
Pulling heart strings I'm the Jimmi Hendrix of this era too
And the Cherry on top was to cherish you
If Loves in the air i must've been scared
To inhale the fumes
Times the only thing we have I still Take
Time out my day to pray for you
And Everything you aim to do My aim is you
The Inspiration I took to make this you
Should take as proof
Look at the adversity I would face for you
What's my Infatuation in my off time I'm like Jay-z
But I'm actually making the song cry
Money I see from this is congratulating the hard times
But cash can wait cuz I'm more Fascinated you all mine
Dont look at my death as something you can exploit from
Ya happiness is the one thing that I get joy from
Called you baby so much that I think that we owe one
I think that we owe one
All these years of loving you and being so dumb
Silence in the room is what I'm getting noise from
Until ya voice sung
That The night is so young
She asked why I got a fear of marriage i replied
I seen what it did to my parents spirits As they try
To disguise their tears with smiles
I don't want that to reappear in our lives
I don't wanna see that day our kids
Have see our hearts disappear in the fire
I don't want you to think I don't care
And that my childish ways are still alive
I'm tryna save our child from the trauma that's in disguise.
Selfish decisions I know
I can't bring a kid in this world
If I'm not in a position to provide or give into that role
Before I get my life together I have to see my Vision unfold
Maybe my life will never be together and my ignorance shows
This summer Ima try to get closer to god
In hopes of getting this thinking reversed so I can just thrive
I know I'm Holding us back and it's killing me
Sometimes I think you're better off with someone else
Instead of little me
Not Worried about outsiders
Not worried about out side of us
Just worried bout our side
And worried about our side of the story when our time is up
Just worried about our mental health when times gets rough
And all of the finer stuff
And all of the stuff we find when these lines are done
And the void we choose to fill in our lives gets wired shut
I think I love you more then I love finding myself
I'd Probably deny it if you were to find me some Help
Dont look at my death as something you can exploit from
Ya happiness is the one thing that I get joy from
Called you baby so much that I think that we owe one
I think that we owe one
All these years of loving you and being so dumb
Silence in the room is what I'm getting noise from
Until ya voice sung
That The night is so young