Heaven Hobby

Sometimes when I'm lying in bed, I like to think of you and fuck with my own head
What if I was still with you instead?
And then I laugh, 'cause I would rather be dead
'Cause I don't have the time for your misogyny
Self-righteous angel, serial monogamy
And I don't remember being a promise
And now I think I'm better on my own, baby

Out of my mind, thinking all this time you were a saint from heaven
Call me a liar, really you were just blind
Such a pretentious gentleman
Go ahead, you wanna be a critical
But working on myself means being cynical
Sorry that you can't wrap your little mind around being my own goddamn individual

I could tell you I'm so sorry
But I won't stoop to that no more, no, now you lost me
Not getting on my knees for any stupid plea
Just when I find myself another heaven hobby
You can tell your friends I'm a bitch
And your family's opinion, I don't give a shit
Future picket fence, now that's rich
'Cause you're the one who ruined it inch by inch

Chain 'round my neck like you own my own name
You tried to control my life
We're not a thing but you're laying the claim on me like I'm your damn wife

Go ahead, you wanna be a critical
But working on myself means being cynical
Sorry that you can't wrap your little mind around being my own goddamn individual

I could tell you I'm so sorry
But I won't stoop to that no more, no, now you lost me
Not getting on my knees for any stupid plea
Just when I find myself another heaven hobby

I could tell you I'm so sorry
But that would be a lie baby

Go ahead, you wanna be a critical
But working on myself means being cynical
Sorry that you can't wrap your little mind around being my own goddamn individual

I could tell you I'm so sorry
But I won't stoop to that no more, no, now you lost me
Not getting on my knees for any stupid plea
Just when I find myself another heaven hobby