Spend My 20s

This pain is pretty, right?
This suffering looks good on me, right?
All these things I feel have got to be for something, right?

I keep thinking
If i just had thinner lips and brighter eyes, maybe longer athletic thighs
It'll all be alright, right?

But I don't wanna spend my 20's hating my body
I wasted my teen years on that already
How long can someone endure this endless suffering?

This gloominess is gorgeous, right?
They'll spin it in a good light, right?
All these days I spend in a half-life will be worth it, right?

I keep thinking
If I just had thinner lips and brighter eyes, maybe longer athletic thighs
It'll all be alright, right?

But I don't wanna spend my 20's hating my body
I wasted my teen years on that already
How long can someone endure this endless suffering?

I wish I'd known earlier
There'd be no audience of revellers
I never would've gone this way
(I said "I never would've gone this way)
And if everybody loves me but me
Was I the right kind of kind?
Was I a waste of a brilliant mind?

It's been a damned long, dark night
How can I make it right?
All my precious time I wasted on a rigged fight



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Writer(s): Ella Swart
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