Is This Real

Is this real?
Have we been dreaming the same thing?
I wouldn't have known

I've been alone
Spending my nights
Dancing in a new crowd
Just blending in

You escaped the city for the first time in our short lives
You can keep the stars to yourself
You escaped the city for the first time in our short lives
You can keep the stars to yourself

I been feeling some kind of loss
2020 hindsight didn't know what i wanted
Never kept back pocket cards
Play what I got i swear to god I

I miss this backroad nightlife
Almost forgot the stars get so bright
Deer caught in your car's headlights
You drive too fast but I feel fine

I got that back in mass whiplash
I got ten tabs in my bookbag
I took a half after you dropped me off

And I feel like I could fall hard
Feel it in my backbone
Now I'm on the train back
Staring at my cell phone
I feel like I live on mars
My hometown makes my heartbreak
And Manhattan is monochrome
I'm living in the backbeat

Is this real?
Have we been dreaming the same thing?
I wouldn't have known

I've been alone
Spending my nights
Dancing in a new crowd
Just blending in

I been wondering what I lost
Each year get knocked off balance harder
Seems like I cant recoup the cost
Of what I got I swear to god I

Don't know how it got so tricky
To write a song or leave the city
Cause I remember when it all felt so
Easy to pretend that I liked this stuff