Freestyle (Novocain)

Waking up to a blank slate
All day tryna fill space
Find words and forget faces
Remember when it snowed on our first date?

So you stayed over my place
Couldn't help staying up late
Skipped class on the first day

I want you to know
I never delete my texts
I'm only making these songs
To kill the time before bed
Cause if I stop for a second
Then I'll get in my head
And I'll start to think about
What i don't wanna think about

Like man I need a new job
Maybe I should have finished college
I know I've been a bad friend
I should get better at calling
I'm scared there's people from home
Probably won't see again
And I don't wanna think about
I don't know what to do about it

I dream of two places at once
I've been working so hard still don't make enough money
I'm dreading the first of the month
Keep making songs like I'm playing the lottery
My chances a million to one
Guess if nobody listens i'm making these songs for me
Like the way I've always done

Just like the way I broke my glasses off the psilocybin
I still taste the sidewalk
It tastes like regret
I been trying not to stand outside myself
I been learning not to have to make amends

I need novocain
Summer's no vacation

If I pull back the frame, maybe the view would be different
But i would still feel the same, I'd still wish that you'd visit
If I can make it thru the next six months
Maybe things won't look so bad

Cause I've been waking up to a blank slate
All day tryna full space
Find words and forget faces
Remember when it snowed on our first date
Do you still think about that?

You stayed over my place
Couldn't help staying up late
Do still think about that