What If

What if I stop being an overachiever
People pleaser
Always chasing for your validation?
What if I stop saying the words you wanna hear?

What if I tell you things I've been telling my therapist?
What if my pain shows up as visible bruises?
Will you start to notice?

Will you finally see that I am human too?
(I have needs and I feel things just like you)
So where do I go?
What about me?

And maybe if you can finally see that I was hurting
(I was hurting)
You'd try to be a better person
And start to think 'bout everybody else
Oh, will you ever grow up?

What if I stop being so understanding
Call your bluff then I cut you off
Stick to the lines I'm drawing?
What if I just let my intrusive thoughts win?

'Cause I didn't sign up for all the nightmares
Wishing that I can forget the things you said
The pain of grieving someone that is still alive
And now I'm left with all the homeworks that you never did
The promise that you didn't keep
The fighting with you in my sleep

I didn't sign up for all the guilty feelings creeping in my sleep
From all the people out there saying that I should forget and forgive
To be the bigger person all the time
Keep up with your lies
To put you on a pedestal and failed to see all your flaws

Will you finally see that I am human too?
Yeah, I am human too
I am human too
I have needs and I feel things just like you
Like you

And maybe if you can finally see that I was hurting
You'd try to be a better person
And start to think 'bout everybody else
(And all the nightmares, wishing that I can forget the things you said)
And start to think 'bout everybody else
(The promise that you didn't keep, the fighting with you in my sleep)
And start to think 'bout everybody else
(And all the guilty feelings)
Oh, will you ever grow up?