Happy & Unsafe

I sat down so many times, I was probably overthinking
About the past and the future, and the cheaters of the game
I walked the line in silence, but I couldn't think damn straight
Where there's a smoke, there's a fire

I knew it, I escaped the flames
But I didn't make it out of ashes

The clouds over my head are rolling in, drifting away
Even though the pain's sticking, I won't be taken away
Tonight I'm having fun, dancing all over the place
But why do I feel happy and unsafe?
I wanted this moment to start again and again
Even though all the good things are facing the end
That's the part of me that liked to say it was part of my plan
But why do I feel happy and unsafe?

I like the sound of my feet walking out of a toxic place my
Reflections in the mirror, it's coming back to one again

On top of city views, I used to smoke to numb the pain
You're gone, I'm breathing again
I knew it, we were made for flames
Having the lighter ON doesn't make you own the fire

The clouds over my head are rolling in, drifting away
Even though the pain's sticking, I won't be taken away
Tonight I'm having fun, dancing all over the place
But why do I feel happy and unsafe?

I wanted this moment to start again and again
Even though all the good things are facing the end
That's the part of me that liked to say it was part of my plan
But why do I feel happy and unsafe?

I love blue, not when bruises are blooming over my body
I love red, not when these intrusive thoughts are hitting my head
The clouds over my head are rolling in, drifting away
Even though the pain's sticking, I won't be taken away

Tonight I'm having fun, dancing all over the place
But why do I feel happy and unsafe?
I wanted this moment to start again and again
Even though all the good things are facing the end

That's the part of me that liked to say it was part of my plan
But why? Do I feel happy and unsafe?So unsafe
Do I feel happy and unsafe?