2019

I was boxed out when you were locked in
Never thought in the end I'd ever hurt a friend
Over some dumb shit, and yes, it's my fault
I was stunned, shit
Mental turmoil and all the suns skipped
Left me anxious and afraid, I never learnt, I strayed away
I was overwhelmed and underpaid, played no fucking games
Shifting and smoking sage, catch me sitting
All enraged, as I turned another page
My expressions left me dazed
And confused about all that I had done
Locked myself up in my room
During then, a month
In New York smoking blunts
With the people, who I needed
They made me realize who I was and who I strived to be when
I had started this, never wrote from the heart with this
Feeling so intense, been a bit since I departed with
Knowing we end at the same spot
Been doing therapy, I'm taking the same shots
Wherever my aims not
I focus to stay calm
And right all of my dang wrongs
If possible, plausible, hope regained
To astronomical, and yes
Catch me wrecking
How this man methodical?

Rewind time
Just a little bit
Back to 2019
Back to where you find me

We had started
Me and Dom were sleeping on the couch
I was bagging food ignoring other routes
Now we up in front of crowds
Making younger me proud
I'm craving energy now
Swim in the rhythm, I drown
My own reality out
So I have space for the positive
Notice that I've gotten this
Game on the chain with a collar bitch
Uh
Load a dooby from the ash tray
While watching Half Baked
With the homies on a half day
Those were the times
But we've moved on
I'm 21
I've grown wiser and from
The New Moons that have passed
Stay up late to just bug
Take a break, thought the hums
Would've awakened me but
I needed skill to move up
Problems crept to a shrug
I do accept all I've done
There's no changing what's done
But I can learn from the
Past mass of experience
Wrote this as a lad tad delirious
And fearless, better quit
Cause' the one man drumming
And y'all just bumming
Hey world, you better hear me humming