Voice memo

Going to be really honest here
Often i got alot of times where im just stuck in a zone
Im like lost in my mind you know i just
Can't really think straight you know im just
Like i don't know
Alot of times i cant even talk about it with anybody
Because even i
Even i sometimes don't understand

I been feeling super down not gonna lie
Waking up theres always tears up in my eyes
Reminiscing bout the things you said to me
Wishing it was easy to just press delete
I remember the same day i almost died
Really wishing i can go back to the times
When everything was perfect yeah and I was fine
But now its late i got to somehow make it right

Yes i know say this way to many times
But I can't help it really need to let it out
I was popping pills i wanted to let go
Dint want to live my life i wanted out
Talking to the moon when I'm feeling the mood
These bitches do not know me yeah they always fools
I lost count to many times i saw them go
Got way to many scars that i will never show

You told me was a real one so explain to me
You was the first one to come but then you leave
Left without a word so can you explain to me
How the hell do i let out this pain in me
I been feeling super down not gonna lie
Waking up theres always tears up in my eyes
Reminiscing bout the things you said to me
Wishing it was easy to just press delete
I remember the same day i almost died
Really wishing i can go back to the times
When everything was perfect yeah and I was fine
But now its late i got to somehow make it right

Yeah bro at one point i just wanted to like kill myself
Because i dint think i would find a job in this field
Or this career i dint think i would be able to do shit
I just kept my head up, i kept going to work
Trying to find work-
I walk my dog i spend time with him i just did mad shit
To give myself positive vibes
I just kept telling myself like "you got this jay"
Just don't worry about anybody else except for yourself
And eventually i got there
I really did wanted to like kill myself
Because i just felt like what's point of me being
Brought to this world just to struggle
I hated myself throughout my whole highschool
That's why i tried shooting at people
I tried hurting people because i was hurt

Hell yeah my guy shit ain't easy
I know for a fact alot of people can relate to that shit
I feel you heavily on that

All could do was just reflect from it and understand
That im not going to get support from anybody
Except for myself and my partner
And all i can do about that is just make sure when i have kids
To not let them go through what i went through at all
And i will tell them my story
I will tell them how i was gangbangin and all that stupid shit
I'm gonna be honest
I want them to know that theres opportunity in this world
Not matter where you come from and how you start
You get me? Just don't worry about anybody else except for yourself

Well said
Got that shit noted in my bain
Yeah this is NightXHours