In the End

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
All I know

I don't care if I get hate for this
But I'm just sick of nothin' ever feelin' different
I gotta find other people who feel the same way
But it's kinda hard 'cause I suck at this overplayed game

Nah, chasin' social algorithms' never been my thing
Sometimes it feels like the only currency is fame
I'm fightin' insecurities I never wanted to face
Only wanna sing somethin' if it resonates

If I don't fit in, if I don't do trends
I don't care, 'cause I don't do fake
And I won't pretend, this I swear
Can't win when no one wants to fight fair
Everyone's opinions of me are gettin' hard to bear

I wanna give 'em real, wanna give 'em honest
I wanna be the voice for those that feel forgot, got lost or lost it
Findin' common ground deeper than the one we're walkin'
Helpin' change their perception is why I really started

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end, it doesn't even matter

Got people in my life who don't want the best for me secretly
The first to kick me while I'm down 'til they think they've broken me
The first to stab me in the back and smile while I bleed
And I'm terrified I'll become the company that I keep

It's hard to leave 'cause I'd rather put up with it than bein' alone
Ain't there a word for that? Oh yeah, Stockholm
The only cheerleader I've had has been me
Funny, 'cause in my head I'm also my worst enemy, ha

But oh, she's fine, she's always crackin' a joke
But they don't get that's how I've learned to cope
Put me inside a crowded room and I still feel all alone
'Cause fittin' in after trauma so ain't so easy, you know?

And yeah, I've always battled with depression though you might never know
I mask it with my aggression, but pain helps me grow
I hope the words on this page can represent the resented
'Cause, in the end, we all just wanna feel accepted

I tried so hard and got so far (oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)
But in the end (in the end), it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all (lose it all)
But in the end (in the end), it doesn't even matter

I've put my trust in you (in you)
Pushed as far as I can go (I can go)
For all this, there's only one thing you
Should know, should know, should know

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end, it doesn't even matter