Your Pain

No interludes no remedies
Lately I find it hard to identify enemies
Ain't knowing when to choose waiting for centuries
Sometimes it's bad blood in the family like the genovese
Regretting what ensues testing my pedigree
I guess my name isn't strong as I was led to believe
I know I'm in too in tune I tried to set it free
I spoke to God hope he pardon me like the seven seas
Breathe preach
I feel more distant with every second regressing peace
I feel more timid with every pledge that I set for me
I feel more blemishes where I tread on the cement streets
I feel the noises the hugs and pain but I've yet to grieve
I feel the poison and anxious anger but I've yet to leave
Hate when they hate me but I hate when they love me
That's the insecurities of junkie tell me who want me

I'm addicted to your pain
I'm addicted to your love for me
I'm addicted to your pain
I'm addicted to your love for me

Flashbacks when I'd go outside to unwind
Looking at the sky surrounded by heaven's eyes
Struggling in disguise but I gotta keep trying
Can't ruin my pride but I'd gotta be lyin'
If I said was the strongest soldier that you ever seen
I seen my momma cry and I died it felt like a dream
Tears down my face no droplets it was a stream
It wasn't holy water that freed but was water that eased
All of my fears tension built up for years
Anger turned into pain pain done turned into prayers
Praying that nun would happen to me or all my family
Pleading for nothing tragic father help me don't damn me
I been to funerals looking at mothers crying
Fallen due to foes or sickness ion wanna die
Lately having them premonitions of my demise
Feeling paranoia demons round me comprised
Of everything I fear or will ever in my life
Wanna protect the ones I love want em' thrive
But I would be lyin' if I said I wouldn't be reaching for nines
If you breaching on mines reach for the sky
Cause I'm a full blown hypocrite
I wanna see peace but it's GG's if you go in knee deep on the
Fam I got problems God yeah I know
I'm damned but I know I ain't a lost soul
I ain't the top oath I am the John Doe
I am the man speaking for those who ain't got hope
I could've cut the vine I was swinging from years ago
But how else is the story of joseph suppose to go
How else is the story of most of my folks gon grow
If I don't tell the truth through the vessel of being known
If I don't tell the truth through the vessel of being hope

I'm addicted to your pain
I'm addicted to your love for me
I'm addicted to your pain
I'm addicted to your love for me



Credits
Writer(s): Juan Duran
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