I Fall In Love Too Many Times

I'm constantly surrounded
By half finished projects
Like living in a ghost town
Each one contains the contents
Of a part of me I haven't fully come to terms with
What's inner peace mean when I'm splintered into pieces?
Yea

And when push comes to shove
I will admit I've become
A tryhard not above
Starting over every time it's hard

Just one girl standing tall
Against a world too small
Trying to have it all
Without a single self regard

I fall in love too many times
I fall in love too many times
Yea

I fall in love too many times
With versions of myself redefined
By all the things I could pour myself into but
Honestly what's the cost
Of touching love and finding loss
When I lose myself each time
I find another dream of mine

I'm paralyzed by options
I could become anyone
Like living in a contest
My inner critic's already won
And even as I write this
I'm second guessing every phrase
I hope when I release it
I still recognize this page

And when push comes to shove
I will admit I've become
A tryhard not above
Starting over every time it's hard
Just one girl standing tall
Against a world too small
Trying to have it all
Without a single self regard

I fall in love too many times
I fall in love too many times
Yea

I fall in love too many times
With versions of myself redefined
By all the things I could pour myself into but
Honestly what's the cost
Of touching love and finding loss
When I lose myself each time
I find another dream of mine

I lose myself too many times
Let's start to read between the lines
And pray that I find
A home in myself cause
A thousand deaths aren't enough
Attend them all while I become
The enemy of my future self