Nightmarish Schemes

It's getting harder to sleep at night
And I could daydream about it
I know I shouldn't
No it's a constant fight
And don't tell me it's a mistake
I know what's right and what's wrong
You know it's so damn hard to stay strong
I've failed all along

I leave the tv on at night
Just to drown the thoughts of you
Oh but my counselor said that's a horrible thing for me to do
She says I'm never gonna heal
If I always refuse to feel
Oh but I just can't see her without me
Am I a fool

Go on and tell me about it
How she had a choice and she didn't pick me
If I truly loved her
I'd let her go
I'd just leave her be
But my heart is caught in a rut of letting go
Or so it seems
Now I just can't sleep on this bed of nightmarish schemes

I leave the tv on at night
Just to drown the thoughts of you
Oh but my counselor said that's a horrible thing for me to do
She says I'm never gonna heal
If I always refuse to feel
Oh but I just can't see her without me
Am I a fool

I don't think this comes by happenstance
It's no coincidence but it's
It's not in my hands
I've been told a million times that this ain't right
So why do I fight it with all my might

We leave our tvs on at night
Owww
Just to bury our memories that hurt
Oh oh oh
But our councilors say that's the fucking worst
No
Woah

She says I'm never gonna heal
If I always refuse to feel
Oh but I just can't see her without me
Am I a fool
Call me a fool

Was there a point to all of this
She wears a ring but I couldn't resist
And now it's time to see her without me
I'm such a fool
Call me a fool