Bloodshot Eyes

It's funny how the chaos feels so calm
How all the screaming is comforting to me
Like a blanket, I wrap myself in it
And the minute I consider an alternative, the instant I seek normalcy
All I see is pain, suffering, lack of purpose, lack of strength
So I blur it out
It's trite, but it's tried and true
But now I'm coming home to you
I'm coming home
I'm coming home

My heart is beating fast, it's pounding
And the loudest sound is sounding
I'm running far from home
Eradication of my thoughts approaching
The termination of the torture finally
Will come with release of the stone

Fading lights
Spinning eyes
God, won't you take me now?
Where are you?
I can't hear you
I'm all alone right now

I've been waiting for this moment my whole life
Waiting for the perfect time to take it back
Termination has never been the answer, but
No one ever took the time to ask

I've been waiting for this moment my whole life
Waiting for the perfect time to take it back
Termination has never been the answer, but
No one ever took the time to ask

Close your bloodshot eyes

They call it the coward's way out
I call it destiny
They say the pain is temporary
I say that they couldn't be more right
It's all in my hands
I have the power to execute my plans
So why can't I just swallow my pride and pull the trigger?

It's a race to the finish line
Me versus my thoughts versus my demons
They lick their lips and taunt me
Dig their feet into the dirt
Surrounded by hate
Overwhelmed for years but it's never too late
Motivated to incinerate, to lacerate, to medicate
Enter a sunken state

Fading lights
Spinning eyes
God, won't you take me now?
Where are you?
I can't hear you
I'm all alone right now

I've been waiting for this moment my whole life
Waiting for the perfect time to take it back
Termination has never been the answer, but
No one ever took the time to ask

I've been waiting for this moment my whole life
Waiting for the perfect time to take it back
Termination has never been the answer, but
No one ever took the time to ask

Close your bloodshot eyes

So
Here you are
At your breaking point
So shut your bloodshot eyes
You've been strong
But you can't go on
Just shut your bloodshot eyes

Oh

Fading lights
Spinning eyes
God, where am I right now?
Am I dead?
Or in my head?
Did I survive somehow?

I had waited for that moment my whole life
Just to find I don't want to take it yet
Termination was never the answer
But I wish I could've had someone to ask
All I want is to tell my story to
Anyone who would listen through and through
Feel the rage, feel the sadness, feel with me
But promise me, when you need help, ask

Open your bloodshot eyes

Open back up and live again