Surface (From "Gravitas")

Again another Friday night
All my friends are drunk and high
Could've spent my time with them
But I'm all alone

Not that they don't want me there
Don't complain that it's unfair
It's not my vibe it's just a shame
That I'm all alone

When I say I'm fine please don't believe me
Calling for help please just hear me
Past the mask reach under the surface
Please don't let - let me go

Choking up I'm trying to breathe
Smile on my face stopping words that won't leave
Hide it all under the surface
Please don't let - let me go

Throw a stone, out into the ocean
Does it respond, or try to fight back?
Let it out, a bit of emotion?
Ruins the flow, but won't show a crack

Give no reply, I take it to heart
No reason to cry, cuz where do I start
I'll let it sink, so you'll never know
Cover it up, won't let it show

Handle the weight, think that I'm strong
But why do I fight, maybe I'm wrong

I wish, I wish, I wish
I didn't have to be
Somebody so consumed
Someone I can't believe

I wish, I wish, I wish
I didn't have to be
Burdened by all of the truth

I wish, I wish, I wish
I could've just remained
Another one in the crowd
Furthest from all the pain

I wish, I wish, I wish
I could've just remained
Part of my little group

I wish I knew
That you're there for me, there for me
There for me, there for me

I wish you knew
That I'm here for you, here for you
Here for you, here for you too

Again another Friday night
I'm alone but that's alright
I don't need nobody else
Cuz I've found my home

Life's the journey, not the end
So I'll be myself, I won't pretend
I'll do everything I can
To feel at home

When I say I'm fine please don't believe me
Calling for help please just hear me
Past the mask, reach under the surface
Please don't let - let me go

Choking up I'm trying to breathe
Smile on my face stopping words that won't leave
Hide it all under the surface
Please don't let - let me go