15

In March 2000 my life was changed
If I could go back, would I do the same
It was heavy in my hand hold that steel
Everything slowed down, seemed way too surreal
Suddenly transported to a different place
With a stone-cold look upon their face
At my own funeral, dressed for death
Family, few friends pay their last respects
To a child who was pained down deep inside
See my mom in tears screaming "Dear god why?
why'd you have to take him? It wasn't his time"
An ice-cold wind crept across my spine
Turn around face to face with my little bro
He's only five years old, I'm a man he'll never know
Snap to, sitting back in my house
Opened up the gun, took them bullets out

A little kid of fifteen, a little too young
A little kid of fifteen, holding that gun
Finding out the world isn't what it seems
I was only fifteen
A little kid of fifteen, little too young
Little kid of fifteen, holding that gun
Haunted in life by broken dreams
I was only fifteen

That was not the first time that I had that gun
Up against my temple ready to pull one
By mistake I slipped let my secret out
Never was a thought I should have said out loud
I was dealing with pain only way I knew
Force it deep inside, eats at you
Every couple days I would have these thoughts
Hidden deep, locked away, hoping not to get caught
Least until I had done the deed
Many times I tried, never would succeed
It was getting worse with every time
Hear it grow a little stronger inside my mind
Telling me right now is the perfect chance
Cause the best excuse comes from romance
And I knew right then that this was it
It was do and die, commit or admit

A little kid of fifteen, a little too young
A little kid of fifteen, holding that gun
Finding out the world isn't what it seems
I was only fifteen
A little kid of fifteen, little too young
Little kid of fifteen, holding that gun
Haunted in life by broken dreams
I was only fifteen

Well, a lot has changed since that fateful night
Still nothing really seems to be going right
Still a fuck up worse than before
Still living my life like nothing's instore
Trying to chase a dream that I've had for years
If I ever reach it, gain respect from my peers
Still have the thoughts almost every day
Something that I can't really seem to shake
Feel like my life's just stuck in the past
Fall asleep every night praying that it's my last
Never have regrets about the choices I made
Got me to the point that I'm at today
Yea, I burned everything, got like one close friend
Ain't got much to say in my own defense
I know if my life was to end right now
Tomorrow be the day I would fix it, somehow

A little kid of fifteen, a little too young
A little kid of fifteen, holding that gun
Finding out the world isn't what it seems
I was only fifteen
A little kid of fifteen, little too young
Little kid of fifteen, holding that gun
Haunted in life by broken dreams
I was only fifteen



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Writer(s): James Klucharits Ii
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