Losing Time

I was convinced I'd feel bigger than this
By now, I'd be everything I liked
Find a place, build a home, fill a life

But I'm getting older
And what more have I got to lose?
I can't compete with myself at 18
She's got fire, something to prove
The winters seem colder
Or maybe it's me burning out
I'll never be who I was at 18
So much fire but so much to doubt

Oh I, I can't ignore the black hole in my stomach
Oh, it's gonna eat me alive
Every door that I've closed
Every kid I know's done it
So I'm seeing age as a crime
And I'll swear to my mom that I'm fine
But I'm joking and I'm losing time

I was convinced by now it would all click
And I'd finally be something more
Now I'm feeling sorry at my pity party
That somebody opened the door

I'm getting older
And I fear that I'm burning out
I can't believe what was at 18
So much fire, so much to doubt

Oh I, I can't ignore the black hole in my stomach
Oh, it's gonna eat me alive
Every door that I've closed
Every kid I know's done it
So I'm seeing age as a crime
And I'll swear to my mom that I'm fine
But I'm joking and I'm losing time

No use in keeping the light on
If I miss what's in front of my ashes
I'm so obsessed with what I couldn't get
And I'm no good but I could be great

I don't know why I see age as a crime
Know I'm doing my best, I'm far from just fine
Switch 17 if I could then I might
Said I'm doing I'm best
But I'm still, I'm losing time
Oh, I'm losing time



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