Gear Up

I gear myself up to talk about
I gird myself up to about it
I calm my mind down to talk about it
I pump my heart up to talk about it

Yes I gear myself up to talk about it
But I stop
I gear myself up to talk about it
Lay out my armies to fight about it
How can I bear this
To hear the same old answers coming back?
I gear myself up to talk about it
I take a deep breath to talk it through but

They do not hear what I say
Is there no sound coming from my mouth?
Why won't they hear what I'm saying?
I'm almost sure That I'm speaking

Maybe today
Somehow this will be the one I get right
I gear myself up to talk about it
Wind up my courage, brace myself for it

Your words may be juganaughts
But I'm not going to let them run me down
I gear myself up to talk about it
I'm standing back to let you pile through but

He does not hear what I say
Is there no sound coming from my mouth?
Why won't they hear what I'm saying?
I'm almost sure that I'm speaking

I gear myself up to talk about it
I gear myself up to talk about it
I gear myself up to talk about it
I gear myself up to talk about it

Eggshells on thin Ice, a tightrope walk with panic attacks
I gear myself up to talk about it
Stack up my metaphors to attack it
Someday I'll look back and laugh when I can see the joke in this
I gear myself up to talk about it
Choke back the tears just like before but

She does not hear what you say
Is there no sound coming from my mouth?
Why won't they hear what you're saying?
I'm almost sure that I'm speaking

Here we go again, here we go again
I bite my lip
No
Here we go again, here we go again
No again, no again
I gear myself up
Just to get knocked down
Yeah I gear myself up
Again and Again and Again and Again

I gear myself up, I'll bite my lip forever
I gear myself up, I'll bite my lip right off
I gear myself up, I'll bite my lip forever and ever

Yes I, I gear myself up
Just to get knocked back
So I bite my lip
And I stop