Paranoid Obsessions

Do you remember the boogeyman?
What about the boogeyman?
It was just trying to protect you
Do you remember how?

By standing in the doorway to hell, waiting, watching

Waiting to strike at my weakest moments

It drains me
I can't do this
I hate myself

I must be the abuser
(You are.)
(Piece of shit.)
(Chuckles)

Should I even drop this?

Why can't I just let go
It's always been better up here

It's not like you have a choice
You have a job, this home
And don't you remember?

The boogeyman teeth have sunk deep

I remember a time when I could live inside myself, my head
But you took it away, boogeyman

Boogeyman who grabbed me
Boogeyman who stabbed me
Boogeyman who seduced me

I remember when it struck

Pondering wether I can accept this

Why can't I just let go

It's not like I have a choice
My job, this home

The boogeymans claws have me

Do you remember
Sitting in that room, showing me new
Do you remember
All the pictures of women you manipulated
Despite the fact that your a faggot
Do you remember
The blade that was held at the jug
Screaming, bitching
Making me feel horrible
Despite the cold metal against

I'm fine

Nothing to worry about

Now the boogeyman has bared its teeth

Why can't you just let go
(Your fine)

It's not like there's a choice
You have a job
A home

Now I'm thinking

She's got the face of a goddess
Baby I'm sorry I fought this
She moves it like she means it
Moves it like she's feinin
My god those red eyes
But all she do is lie

But wait

Do you remember
The way that you said that
I asked and you plead
Do you remember
You claimed I was your man
I remember you said
Holy shit its 2am
Do you remember

I watched your wrists
The blod stained tile
It matches your smile

It's OK to let go

Just remember

Pay the house

And of course

Imma drop this music

So my question is