To My Father

To my father
You must save me
I feel souless
I feel crazy
Called my mom up
I said I'm hurting
But she don't know how the fuck it feels when the devil's working

Been talking to God, I hope that you're real
I'm prayin' I feel somethin'
You can try to detach the problems you have
I promise they still come
What if the problem is me?
Don't wanna leave, I'm praying you let go
I'm totally fine with being alone
I told you I really am that numb

So what do I do when lovin' on you is never enough?
I try to be patient with loving myself, I don't give a fuck
So what do I do when I'm drunk and feel like just takin' my life?
I promise that you wouldn't bat me an eye
You wouldn't care if I died

To my father
You must save me
I feel souless
I feel crazy
Called my mom up
Said I'm hurtin'
She don't know how the fuck it feels when the devil's workin'

I feel the sky crashing down over me
Why should I live when it hurts just to be
Me

Or who I thought I was
I spend too much time drinkin' all this liquor
Now I only like me when I'm drunk
It's fucked up, I know
The only name I write in my own death note is me
Suicidal thoughts, broken tendencies
Healing isn't easy, something that I learned
Nothing you could teach
If my God is real, listen to me speak
I really need your help, I'm 'bout to kill myself
Fallin' to the ground
In my tears I drown, can you hear me now?
Blood on the floor
Cuts on myself, fuckin' hate myself
Try to change myself, I don't need fucking help
Nothing fuckin' helps

With my brain
Please help me solve the riddle
It's causing all my pain

To my father
You must save me
I feel souless
I feel crazy
Called my mom up
Said I'm hurting
She don't know how the fuck it feels when the devils working

I feel the sky crashing down over me
Why should I live when it hurts just to be
Me?



Credits
Writer(s): Lewis Beresford Hughes, Nicholas Valentino Audino, Jonathan Jacob Dorr, Kalvin Tyler Beal
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