Cannibal Within

I didn't know I'm neurotic
I never thought I was scared of dying at all
I always thought my biggest fear would somehow
Be love related, not fentanyl

I can blame the addiction for that
With the additional countdown to a heart attack
When the beating comes from the irregular drum
I swear to every single god I'm done, it's the last time
Everyone knows it's a lie
By the time I'm feeling fine again
It's just another line
And another line

All the parts we hate start adding up
Until we find ourselves with more regret than blood
The moment we can't recognize the person inside our skin
We're losing the fight, eaten alive by the cannibal within

In a major turn of events
It turns out I'm depressed
They say I use jokes and joy to avoid the realization
But I can think of solutions for that
Just turn on the radio and cock it back
I just don't wanna blow my brains out to Hotel California

And all the parts we hate start adding up
Until we find ourselves with more regret than blood
And the moment we can't recognize the body we're living in
We're losing the fight, eaten alive by the cannibal within

And that overwhelming feeling
All the pressure in my chest
To swim against the sinking feeling
That today might be my last
But everything looks bigger
In the mirror of the sea
Come see how lonely of a hunter
The heart tends to be

And all the parts we hate start adding up
Until we find ourselves with more regret than blood
And the moment we can't recognize the person inside our skin
We're losing the fight, eaten alive by the cannibal within