Jackson, You Are Dying

I think I let the "one cigarette
Away from death" look
Get the best of me
And I know it shows
My head to my toes
But it's all I know
In my skin, I scream

Wake up at two and can barely sleep
'Cause I'm up on my phone, checking Twitter and memes
I'm wasting my money, but can barely eat
That person in the mirror isn't me

And all my friends say, "Jackson, you are dying"
Get yourself together, baby
Are you even trying?
But I won't decay
My mother knows I'm lying
Get yourself together, baby
Are you even trying?

I think I let
Just one bad night's rest
Take everything left
As I pace around my room
And I'm scratching on my walls
And I'm screaming, "fuck it all"
The six-pack on my nightstand
Just to sleep, I drink them all

I need medication for sleep-deprivation
There's blood in my eyes and it wants to talk
It says, "spare the good and give in, and let go, and give up"
Just taste the chemicals
I'm nothing, I'm hopeless, I'm numb to the focus
The clock on my phone ticks, cyclical
I'll see you in a day or two or three
Just know, I'm far from feeling me

And all my friends say, "Jackson, you are dying"
Get yourself together, baby
Are you even trying?
But I won't decay
My mother knows I'm lying
Get yourself together, baby
Are you even trying?
And all my friends say, "we don't want you dying"
It's not too late to save yourself
Just wants to see you trying
But I won't decay
Mom, just know I'm trying
Get yourself together, baby
Are you even trying?