Inner Battles

Spitfire on the beat
Here we go again
What is this life? What am I doing? What is the reason?
Is this the right choice? Why are we here?
Am I on the right path? What am I supposed to be doing?
How can it be, that my brain is both my friend and my enemy?
That my thoughts are both for me and against me?
It's like sometimes the worst enemy that I could possibly imagine
Is the one in my head

Doubt, no you can't do it
No you can't persevere, can't get through it
Prolly got too much on your plate can't chew it
It's probably a waste of your time to pursue it
You can't go far, you can't raise that bar
It seems too tough, yeah it seems too hard
You feel so weak, beat down and bleak
The fading light of a dying star
You can not rise, you can not thrive
You cannot be seen but you cannot hide
You can not win, you can not grin
You can not be different from where you've been
You can not grow, you can not flow
You cannot be cast as the star of the show
But Once you believe it, it becomes true
Time to choose, the doubt or you
The doubt or you, the doubt or you

Fear, fear, fear, fear, fear
Fear, oh no, what should I do?
Sacrifice wins cuz I'm too scared to lose
Sacrifice plans cuz I'm too scared to choose
Always one eye open cuz I'm too scared to snooze
Like, oh no I can't control it all
Omniscient, like to know it all
Uncertainty is the monkey wrench
It can take my goals, unroll em all
Like never mind, I was out my mind
It was wasted dollars and wasted time
I was scared to fall so I never climbed
Never picked the mic up and wrote a rhyme
Never rose to glow up and never shine
Never took my dreams and went and made em mine
Never saw the vision, never knew the mission
Never plotted out a whole grand design
Fear is natural but it must be kept at bay
Hope you hear the words I'm about to say
It is not impossible to slay
You must be the one, there's no other way
Power that it has is the power you give it
The more that you do, the more that you live it
You must make the choice, taking back your voice
Silence the fear and say good riddance

Uhh... no, you know what just go ahead without me
I'm not gonna do my verse after all its fine
Anxiety, riddled in society
Come in every shape size form and variety
It is the ghost with the most notoriety
Has the ability to shut you down entirely
Everything good, but still no it ain't
How can my brain and my mind debate
May have walls but there's holes in the gate
May have goals but there's foes in the way
How can I conquer what I don't understand
Why do I feel this way, oh man
This wasn't supposed to happen wasn't part of the plan
I just gotta move forward, anyway I can
On my two legs I stand
Ready myself for the battle at hand
Cuz It's, my life, my choice, my voice, my legacy now I'll fight till the end