Brood

My mind it wandered, followed my unhinged womb
The ticking of a clock I couldn't see within the room
I've tasted moonshine, but this was pure
The tidal waving was erasing everything I knew before
Feeling friendly, feeling fine / make mountains out of molehills
That i could not have identified / crash collisions, cells divide
Sensations of contortions held in power right between my thighs

Forget the sense of self-hood for once - without intoxication now
Forget the sense of self all for good
The moment that you left me
Was the moment that the walls they came down

Restless awakenings, embodied grief
The traumas of the past came to haunt me in my sleep
The body heavy with blood to spare
Reaching from within and pushing skin
To let me know it's there
Feeling pressure, on the rise
A little chest bursting event of ritual and sacrifice
Between state and lunar glare
The echoed howl into the night the moment your skin touched the air

Remaining lucid, untethered veins
Screaming in a crowded room, without any restraint
Instinct stepped in and became my guide
Relying on the tricks of chemistry to keep us both alive
Feeling anxious - who am I
To bring you to a place that they fear ritual and sacrifice
A pause too pregnant for me to bare
The splitting of reality in the before and after care