Broken

Broken once, I cried for months
Broken twice, I was livin' on lies
Broken for the third time
Now I'm mixing drugs with wine
I gave you all my ecstasy
I know you're waiting for the death of me
Yea I'm on these cigarettes
Smoke in my lungs now I can't breathe
You said you love me now tell me why you left me
I'm alone and dead again, yea girl you deceived me
You left me saying you no longer feel for me
I can hear your voice fading, how can I let it be?
Left all my homies just for you and now I'm feeling lost without you
I guess your next guy wants me screwed
I don't speak lies all these shits are true
All my demons sitting on top of me
Feeling too low, I can't let me free
Now it's getting harder for me to breathe
I still see your damn face in my dreams
My pain gets me killed, you won't understand how it feels
My scars are too deep even time cannot heal
Done living in these delusions
Tryin' to get outta my matrix
I tried my best to make it back
But I realised it can't be fixed
Your thoughts haunt me every night
My demons too strong I can't fight
I love you shawty, I don't know why
Your clothes in my bedroom
My hoodie smells like your perfume
Still I miss those days
We used to gaze at the moon
Love is a drug I overdosed on it
And now it got me tripping real bad
They say money is happiness cap
I got money but I'm still sad damn
Your posters on my wall, girl I was your fan
Demons on my mind
It's love that I'm tryin' to find
All these times you were lying
And now girl you left me dying
Pain in my heart I'm feeling so lonely
I want you to come get and hold me
It's been 10 months since I lost you
You with your next guy still I miss you
It's funny how quickly time flies
Without you girl I was gon' die
Now all these shits are done forever
I'm hoping for things to get better
I wish your next guy kiss someone else
In front of you wearing your sweater
And then you spend the nights crying
Reading my love letters