In My Mind

Under the wave of the ocean
I hid my big dream
But I will not tell
It will always be in my mind
Under the wave of the ocean
I hid all my fears
You'll never know that
Don't try to read this
In my eyes
Mixed signals really Scrambled my brain
I'm indecisive It's like a torch
Had burned All the memories
With a lightbulb Arguing back and forth
I'm Loosing sleep It's really timeless
Thinking we'll last forever Just thinking the love is righteous
Never came to reality Always misunderstood
Always was pointing fingers We'll never be understood
Trying to fight for 2 But was battling with myself
You was already gone I was trying to heal the welts
Realization finally hit And I'm still blaming myself
It's hard to know The one I love
Had let me talk to myself It's hard to love
When in your heart You can not feel for another
Significant other Why would I wanna look for another
Still wishing for hope The paradise was pose
To be spent with you Now I'm up at 5am
And I don't know what to do Just let me drown
Just let the pain
Get up out of my mind Don't wanna hurt
Don't wanna live And I am not scared to die
(Hook)
Under the wave of the ocean
I hid my big dream
But I will not tell
It will always be in my mind
Under the wave of the ocean
I hid all my fears
You'll never know that
Don't try to read this
In my eyes
2 broken pieces Don't make it fix And I'm still tryna try
Why should I quit When I was taught
To only fight for what's mine
It's just 1 word That we don't have
And we both know that it's trust
Look in the past What did I do
Did I dishonor your trust
The answer is no But even through situations
That we were facing Nothing can change the fact
That I wanna get reacquainted Settle all of our differences
I just hope That you're listening
Shine your light On my darkness
Don't get caught up With these simpletons
Damage taking its toll Will you be there When it's over
I'm crashing hard I'm on a blitz
What more you want I'm a loner
Just grab the weapon Nobody cares
I'm just a thorn in their side
Been called a failure And a loser
But for you I had shined And now it's gone
I'm in the darkness Once again I'm alone
The broken light to lift me up I use to stab at my bone
If it rings I wanna talk But you won't answer your phone
How am I pose to be a king Without my queen on her throne
(Hook)
Under the wave of the ocean
I hid my big dream
But I will not tell
It will always be in my mind
Under the wave of the ocean
I hid all my fears
You'll never know that
Don't try to read this
In my eyes
Dear Family
Sorry I've changed But this is me
It's weird that Im not dancing
Sometimes change Is for the best
But this the effect from damage Abuse for years
But yet nobody saw the truth Tried to throw me into counseling
When I should've talked to you Losing trust up in the world
And forced to talk to a stranger Bout a situation
That could've put my life In more danger
Almost was gone Yea I was bleeding
From the side of my head My father rushed me
To the hospital
But I never was scared Accepted death
But I remember waking up to a doctor
He told me that I would prosper
There's nothing left but to ponder
And yet I lied to my father About the truth of what happened
So I just let him be angry
Hoping he knew I was cappin
After that day all The smiling was gone
Nomore smiling dancing kid I had grew up it was done
Being the oldest made it worse
I felt the world go against me
Cuz in my point of view Everybody was really the enemy
(Hook)
Under the wave of the ocean
I hid my big dream
But I will not tell
It will always be in my mind
Under the wave of the ocean
I hid all my fears
You'll never know that
Don't try to read this
In my eyes