Fearful Avoidant

I go to the gym
Like every doggone day
Just to keep up the appearance that I'm strong

And I'm too damn proud
To tell my therapist about
Things in my life when they go wrong

Even though that's what I'm payin em for
Even though that's what I'm payin em for
They say "How are you?"
I say "Great" nothing more
Even though that's what I'm payin em for

So I go to my girl
To get some support
Or someone who will listen to what I say

But I'm so damn concerned
With looking good to her
That I smile and pretend that I'm okay

Even though that's what I'm dating her for
Even though that's what I'm dating her for
When she asks "What's wrong?"
I say "Nothing, my friend"
Though that's what I'm dating her for

So I go to the club
To find a summer love
Or someone that can boost my self esteem

But the moment I'm done
I feel the urge to run
And go back to the same old hating me

Even though that's what I'm layin em for
Even though that's what I'm layin em for
She says "that was great"
But I'm straight out the door
Even though that's what I'm layin em for

I don't know what I am singin this for
I don't know what I am singin this for
This is all a joke
So feel free to ignore
I don't know what I was singin that for