When I'll be gone

Sometimes I think about
What life will be in a decade or two
What I will be in a decade or two
And I'm afraid
I'm scared that I won't make
Everything that I wanted to do
That I'll just age and use up my youth
With nothing redeeming that I can be proud of

That I'll just be older
And ten years are a lot when you're twenty
That I'll still be running in the same routine
But this time with my life behind me
So I train harder, I work harder I've ever did
To avoid becoming what I'd wish I'd never been
Until I break this damn fate with my bare hands
And burn down whatever I was meant to be

But right now
Nothing works and I get down
And I get doubts in my head sometimes
But I won't drop and I won't let go
And I won't stop
I know I already got so far
But it hurts inside of me sometimes
But I swore it so I won't stop now

Listen to me in the silence when I'm gone
You'll already know what happened when I'm gone
I'll finally know what happened when I'm gone
But I'll be gone, yeah
Listen to me in the silence when I'm gone
You'll already know what happened when I'm gone
I'll finally know what happened when I'm gone
But I'll be gone
And I'll be proud I never stopped