The Void

I've been going through the motions lately
Trying to fill this void and it's driving me crazy
I've been swimming in this ocean lately
Crying out for help, but nobody's there to save me

And I'm so afraid just to be myself
Afraid to admit that I need help
I've been living my life like a livin' hell
I don't wanna tell anyone I need these pills
Everyone says it's okay, but I can't tell
I don't know where it all went off the rails
You keep telling me that I'm someone you love
But the way that you treat me says something else

I gave you time, I gave you life
You gave me pain, you gave me strife
I break my back, to see you smile
You give me nothing back, treat me like a child
I'm trying to do my best, but it's been fucking tough
When everyone around me thinks my best just isn't good enough
You need to try harder, you need to go farther
You need to die for my approval like a fucking martyr

What you think about me, why should I care?
When I was struggling, motherfucker, you wasn't there
You don't know my life, so you don't know my struggle
I know a lot of people like you I've been seeing double

You've been going through the motions lately
Trying to fill the void and it's driving you crazy
You've been swimming in that ocean lately
Reaching out your hand like you think that you could save me

And people like you are why I'm afraid to be myself
So afraid to admit that I need help
You got me living my life like a livin' hell
I don't want you to know that I need these pills
Everyone says it's okay, but I can't tell
You make me feel like all I ever do is fail
Stop telling me that I'm someone you love
When the way that you treat me says something else

My status ain't the highest, but you ain't the brightest
Money ain't everything, you think that's all that life is
What a shame it is that you feel so alone
With all them things you own
Up inside your home
Looking down on me like you on a fucking throne
When I look at you, all I see is a fucking clone
Doing what you're told, buying all the things you should
While you growing old, pretending like your life is good
And so long as you envy for the next man's treasure
The way you feel right now is how you'll feel forever
You look at me and you don't see much
I look at you and I feel sorry as fuck

And I've come to terms with who I am
What you think about me, I don't give a damn
I'm tired of doing everything I can
To get you to approve the work of my hands
You smile in my face, reaching for a hug
You don't know about me or the things I've done
I don't need your approval or your fake ass love
You can stay away and keep my name off your tongue