Together (at Meadows Edge)

The city above us
Has confined its resistance
We reside in the distance
Waiting for the best of us
Iridescent woes
Nest in the walls
You let em out and everyone wants to know
How you're meant
To move on when wolves start to break in
Reinvent the wool
Knit to your womb
We were children round the sails on the sand
Not by blood
But by bond
Your laughter goes on and on

Though we're stuck we're not defined
By the moment when I knew
I couldn't help, but didn't lie
I hate that something had to split my life in two
The before and after
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
Or how to find a way to grip myself to this
I know you will
Though you're far out

And in death
You keep us close and offer rest
A song of prayer and promises
In love or loss
And heaviness

These days
I visit the graves of my teachers
Their flames taught me lessons
Spark the verse of a new art

I begin to live in a sordid lull
I tried to tell myself I never would
Spend your hope in wonder
It's fleeting
It wasn't enough
Every day I become something less
And fail again in what you never would
And what I've learned

I now believe the difference in what
A cord with you or alone is deterring
Togetherness

These days
I visit the graves of my teachers
Their flames taught me lessons
Spark the verse of a new art

These days
I visit the graves of my teachers
Their flames taught me lessons
A machine with its own mark

This cold feels warmer
Like it never left and I'm slower
To take a chance I know was never deserving
A culture of your divinity
A portion less of a crying shoulder
It's taken over everything I hoped to remember

I wanted to take your pain away
Or at least be joined in purposing the weight of your suffering
But I don't know what's right
I don't know

If I could I would have taken his place
Without a face or a name hope takes
I carry on though inside
I selfishly want my life
To end
But I know it can't the edge of decent
Raised my
Voice with your heights
Can I see you there