Monuments

The flaws with manifestation are too numerous to enumerate I know
Down, we go
Halfway up the coast I noticed that my half-wit haircut couldn't stay the fuck up
Here we go
This is it
I've been bored, I've been weird
I've been so alone and involuntarily celibate

Eighteen years led me to a perfect moment
I held your hand under the Washington Monument
We sat on that bench, and I saw an angel
Who knew derangement would ensue

(Braking force)
You can't say that you didn't want me there
(Braking force)
I can't say that I really even cared
(Braking force)
I just knew that I wanted to not be alone

And I thought I knew you
I didn't know a thing
I didn't know a goddamn thing

Manifesting affection
The state of affairs just a few months later
Chaotic, dysfunctional
The facade of a normal love was gone
What I witnessed would scar me for years to come

The braking force of a crash alone could displace your organs
The signs were there all along, I didn't notice
Paid for it then, thought it fine by the morning
The clarity of a fucking teenager
Who didn't know that he had a developmental disorder

(Braking force)
You must think the most awful things of me
(Braking force)
Well, I can't say that I don't harbor some enmity

And I thought I knew you (I thought I knew you)
I didn't know a thing (I didn't know a thing)
I didn't know a goddamn thing
(I didn't know)

And I reflect upon the passion that we shared
And I think back before it got so bad
The memories are fading now
But I still recall somewhere deep inside
And I think back to how it felt to love you
In the prime of my youth
The beginning of my understanding
My god, I was so naive
And I remember the look on your face
When we lied in the hammock by the lake
You showed me a side of you that was innocent

Braking force, see the trauma in motion
Manifesting affection
Braking force, see the trauma in motion
Manifesting affection
Braking force, see the trauma in motion
Manifesting affection
Braking