Secretly Love It

Some times
I'm scared of myself
I smile so much it's impossible to tell
I got bruises all over my skin
The party is lit
Where have you been? (Oh.)

I'm sorry, (mm)
I think I stained the carpet
Must've felt something,
It's hard for me to stop it
Made a mistake when I looked into the mirror
Had to drop the knife, didn't wanna be a sinner

But.
You secretly love it
Do it under your shirt, be pretty about it
Last night, the knife got close to my neck
And my thighs and my wrist and my eyes
Don't be sad if he dies...

Let me out!

You can't keep me locked up forever

Once you cross the line, the blade is benign
And that's how it gets you to miss all the signs
You must be lucky with both legs broken
Keepin all your ashes, he gotta be smokin

This is my fantasy, and I am the nightmare
I'm the yin to the peace you gotta be aware
The gun shoots first before I pull the trigger
Someone has to stop me before I get bigger

"Will he die tonight?" Wondered the reaper
"The world has failed me again," said the weeper
I'm so lost, where the fuck is my savior?
Alone is this world, I feel like a failure

But (mm)
You secretly love it
Do it under your shirt, be pretty about it
Last night, the knife got close to my neck
And my thighs and my wrist and my eyes
Don't be sad if he dies

You can't kill us
I won't let you
...yet

My feelings are hurt can anyone help me?
No good for myself will anyone accept me?
I have all the candy, now am I worthy?
Think fast! this road is too curvy

Swerving
I'm drunk, wheres the hole?
I dug my own grave, bury me whole
Tears grow plants in this misty cemetery
Tombstone looks beautiful, I think I wanna marry

Death heals wounds that's why life comes first
Am I really lucky, or am I just cursed?
To stay in this world, what's the cure?
Let me leave
(Fine) I got something up my sleeve

Trapped in our illusion why not cause havoc
Don't look away, this about to get graphic
Ill abuse the world while I'm still living
I don't forget and I'm not forgiving

But
You secretly love it
Do it under your shirt, be pretty about it
Last night, the knife got close to my neck
And my thighs and my wrist and my eyes
Don't be sad if he...

Haha...

Dies