Last Valentine

It's always been imperative
That you control the narrative
Paint the story in your light
Just so you can sleep at night

Your pattern is a lesson
You'll likely never learn
Until you're choking on the ashes
From the bridges that you burned

You did your act of violence
As if we had just met
Made all the decisions
And you did not break a sweat

It's fight or flight
When things get tough
I wanted us to last
So I prepared for battle but
You grabbed a boarding pass

You feel you're in the right
Cuz that's just how it's done
When you're a child and you're bored
And you're looking for some fun

You made me feel insane
Making sure to get your way
So you could hop a plane
Take your shit and run away

Dodging my affection
Leaving me perplexed
Destroying our connection
Now on to the next

Leave the house
Ditch the dog
Dump your partner
And our life
Burn it down
Walk away
Post a story
Twist the knife

No matter where you roam
You'll be staring at your phone
Watching someone else's life
Like it's better than your own

Scrolling pictures endlessly
You didn't see the irony
That our life off the screen
Would be many people's dream

Said I'm sorry for my part
You refused to do the same
Because you fail to see your role
Thinking you are without blame

All you care about is you
And I should've seen the sign
When you touted your love language
But didn't honor mine

Never shared how you felt
Thinking I should read your mind
Quick to play the victim
And then acting like you tried

Maybe someday
But unlikely
You will come to realize too
That the ones who loved you deeply
Now have grown to despise you
For the way that you acted
And the things you did
You wrecked a loving home
For a motherfucking kid

Lay your trap for another
Pretend you are a lover
I have pity for your prey
When you go icy like the tundra

Paint your face
Puff your lips
Stain your skin
Pad your tits
Try to fool all the fools
Posing at the boutique pools
Bouncing to the next hotel
Acting everything is swell
Just another shallow soul
Trying to fill an empty shell

This might seem vindictive
And you're absolutely right
But it's the version of our story
That you did not get to write

A grown woman in the world
Acting like a teen
Making sure that your life
Is one that will be seen
By insta ranks
And vapid skanks
Seeking validation
But likes won't cure your emptiness
Or offer consolation

You slipped away too easy
After everything you took
Made you think we're cool
And I let you off the hook

Now that you have shown me
Exactly who you are
I was such a fucking idiot
For lending you my heart

You said you still love me
And that you wish me well
But no matter what you say
And no matter who you tell

I don't have to like you
Just because we had a past
This is your Valentine
Consider it the last