Warrior

I ain't been swimming, I been drowning, but I don't expect 'em to get it
I can't tell 'em I'm suicidal, so I keep it hidden
They can't handle the fire in me, fuck my sickness
I can't handle the fire either, I'm not scared to admit it
They act like I got better, but I really didn't
Every day it gets harder, but I gotta be different
Honestly, I don't want to wake up tomorrow
But it's not about what I want, my brain it's tryna kill me

Day to day it's learning new ways, but I keep on building
When I say it's my enemy, they act like I'm silly
I'm so focused on who I'm gonna be I can't hear 'em
I feel like I been plummeting, keep on writing lyrics
I don't quite know where my stomach is, but I keep on steering
I've gotten rid of my luggage now, so tired of fearing it
I'm done with the run around, life is too serious
I know what my spirit is
I'm a warrior

When any problem come my way I'm gonna fight it
I don't bow to any God except the highest
I'm not righteous, but I know that he knows I'm trying
I might be biased, but every day he gives me life, and everytime I try to take it he saves Me
When I'm frightened I'm able, I lose sight and he wakes me, my seat saved at the table
Always

My do's are death but he paid my dues
Gave me my breath back like deja vu
At war with my head, and some days I lose
I wake up embarrassed, scarred, bruised
I cannot bare it, torn to pieces
I needed out, worn through
How I bleed freedom now?
I mourned losing myself, and it warmed up
But it still storms on the daily
I'm headed to war, not a maybe
I gotta be light where it's shaded and honestly right now the world pretty shady



Credits
Writer(s): Clayton Gifford
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