In My Head

Tell me why
I still got you on my mind
Day and night I need a reason
To forget
And to live without regret
It's still in my head
It's not that easy

February 2019
I remember that time
'Cause that's when I met you
Tell me, how could I forget you
If you changed my whole life
Yes, you made it all right
And you stuck by my side
Despite all the drama
Despite all the karma
That seemed to be coming my way
And despite all the negative things that people wanted to say
When you chose me as the man that you wanted to date
When you met me all I had was the hate
Deep inside me burning
I was at a stage of learning
But deep inside me yearning
For a little bit of love
I guess I needed a hug
I guess I needed your love
And that's what you gave me
Forgave me
When I fucked up
You truly brought me back to life
And I'm not shamed so say it
On the contrary
I'm sorry
If you feel like I didn't do enough
When all you did was give me your love

Tell me why
I still got you on my mind
Day and night
I need a reason
To forget
And to live without regret
It's still in my head
It's not that easy

I was raised rough
I said, I was raised tough
But that should never be a reason to push away love
Yet that's exactly what I did
You see, I come from a motto that is known as fuck a bitch
And that's how I lived
Until you walked into my life
And then you showed me how to fight
And not with other people
But with the demons in my mind
Do you remember that night?
When we hopped inside my ride
And we took that long drive
After that, I could never be the same
It represents the damned seed
Of how for me it all changed
And you are the one to blame
Or rather, you are the one to thank
For making my heart sink
And making my mind think
'Cause that's exactly what I needed
Repeat it
And heed it
Bleed it
And feed it
'Cause now I see it
I promised you my life
And in return you offered me a wife
Yet here we are separately
And I sit here desperately
Trying to explain

Tell me why
I still got you on my mind
Day and night
I need a reason
To forget
And to live without regret
It's still in my head
It's not that easy

I wish you could see
The smile on the faces of peeps
When they found that it was over between us
It's like they prayed for the day
And despite the tribulation
That's just more confirmation
They were jealous of the magic between us
It was easy to tell every time that they seen us
Fucking people couldn't stand to bare the site
Of a smile on my face and a woman by my side
But that's not why I write
I write you 'cause I miss every little thing about you
And I'm truly lost without you
But don't worry I don't live with regrets
On the contrary
I truly feel blessed
And the reason for this letter
Is to express myself better
When I start to explain
How my life was much better
When you were all up in it
And you gave me every minute
Of all the extra time you had
Amor, how could I forget you
Even if I could
I don't ever wanna try
Even if it hurts
I love you lingering in my mind
And it happens all the time
And I smile when it gets me
I will never forget you
So please don't forget me

Tell me why
I still got you on my mind
Day and night
I need a reason
To forget
And to live without regret
It's still in my head
It's not that easy