los angeles

You're out in Los Angeles, I'm still stuck at home
You're out drinkin' Jack and I'm betting you'll take him home
You're out making memories, some of them you'll regret
But nothing can match the feeling of spending time with your friends
You're out there for your dreams, you don't care what people think
But you're cutting me so deep to the bone, no
You're out there sharing laughs, I'm having panic attacks
And hoping I'll get you back, but I won't (No)

I lost my voice from all the screaming, I'm so terrified
One day you'll leave me like my mother, I'm so traumatized
These things I do remind me who I never wanna be
Sometimes it's hard to believe, I see my mother in me

You didn't say anything, now I'm overthinkin'
I was 'bout to go to sleep, instead, I'm up and drinkin'
Don't make me double up, I don't need another cup
I'd tell you how I've been, but I know you don't give a—
'Cause you don't ever text, you don't ever call
I spent way to many nights drinkin' alcohol
I get way too in my head, but you know that
Smokin' in your bed takes me way back
I don't wanna text, I don't wanna call
I sent one the other day, I got no response
I can't take another hit, I'll be so sad
I wish it was good, but it's all bad
Don't tell me you love me if you probably won't the next month
Don't act like you want me and then treat me like a no one
Make me think I'm lucky and then leave me in the dust, huh
Make me fall for you, then act like you don't give a fuck

You're out in Los Angeles, I'm still stuck at home
You're out drinkin' Jack and I'm betting you'll take him home
You're out making memories, some of them you'll regret
But nothing can match the feeling of spending time with your friends
You're out there for your dreams, you don't care what people think
But you're cutting me so deep to the bone, no
You're out there sharing laughs, I'm having panic attacks
And hoping I'll get you back, but I won't